Home again

I arrived home on Friday afternoon to 

my girlies and dh waiting at the airport

for me :)

Its soooo nice being home again, although I'm not to 

sure how long I will be here for.

We had 'the chat' tonight after the girlies skyped mum and dad

my big girlies cried, which broke my heart and my

littlest just had lots of questions one being about the 

funeral, we told them that when it was time for Grandma

to be buried, we've decided that they won't be attending

just daddy and i would go, which then made her ask

who would look after them, we told them that when it

was happening we would decide and let them know.

That it was ok to be sad and to cry, and if they were

really sad to let us know. Dh even teared up during

'the chat'

 In the morning I will go and see their

teachers and let them know the situation in case there are

issues at school.

I spent the bulk of my time with my sister, was easier

all round. Mum is so very frail, sleeps 20 hours a day,

so skinny and can't walk further than 50 metres

without needing to stop. She isn't cooking or doing

anything that she would do when she's well & it broke my

heart to see her like that.

I went to Hobart with mum and dad for her PET scan,

dad took me to The Quilted Crow, The Patch Work(s),

Frangipani Fabrics and a few antique shops

all I bought was 5 fat quarters of Batik Fabrics for dh

New York Beauty quilt, a pair of scissors and a

Naive Christmas Book, oh I did buy a gorgeous book

on Folk Applique from the Needlewoman too.

It was the Eden Whale Festival yesterday, my quilting group

had a quilt hanging, I took all my mini quilts up for display

and was asked buy the local shop which sells arts and crafts 

from the area if I would make some for them to sell, I had to say no

as now isn't the best time for it to happen, and I am 

struggling keeping up with the Christmas Swaps I am in.........

I haven't stitched a thing for 2 weeks, I took it with me

but it didn't see the light of day once.

Henrycat isn't talking to me at all, he has taken to sleeping on

the top bunk and the one time he did come and lie beside me

he attacked me & I pushed him off the bed in disgust 

 he isn't a happy cat at all.

We are also home phone-less thanks to an issue at the

exchange, should be working again by Wednesday.....

Thanks Telstra.

As soon as my shopping arrives in the mail, yes, I posted 2 bags home

and was still 2.1 kgs over the bag limit with virgin, 5.1kgs with rex

I will share the dismal amount of shopping I did.

On my way home

To my babies, hubby & Henrycat. Can't wait to see them and have some cuddles, but not looking forward to having 'the chat'.

We have to do it because no one else will, just wish I didn't. Picked up some books from the cancer council to help us have 'the chat' it's hard enough for me to get my head around it, who knows how the girlies will react, but their teachers will be informed as soon as the kids know just in case they have meltdowns at school and we have great friends around us

I am having good days and sad days today was a good day until I spoke to dh, he always makes me cry, but in Melbourne airport it really isn't a good look, no doubt when I see him this afternoon the tears will flow again

thank you all from the bottom of my heart for your comments and prayers, they meant the world to me xxx

It's terminal

Went to mum's big appointment today it's all gone to hell in a hand basket and the lung cancer has spread to her stomach and she has 3-5 large tumors, her specialist said her time is limited.
It was all to much for me and I walked out just after he started.

So very very sad tonight and I have to go home on Friday and tell my girlies about their Grandma

Not the news we wanted to hear at all
We are all very shocked tonight........

Going Awol

I was booked to be flying home next week

but 

now I am booked to be flying this week 

So I won't be posting until I

am home again on the 2 Nov.

Stay safe and I'll be back

Whales, Clamshells and More

As promised, here are the photos of

what I am sewing, whales and more!

The whale shots I have had to crop so you can see them

they were a fair way out and I obviously need a bigger

zoom lens for my Canon

The pattern I bought at the Quilt hanging

its all foundation pieced, love it

block 1 of  'mum's quilt' this is actually my block

I will collect hers when I am home next next

that it will look like finished, I have to make the 9 centre blocks 

and the triangles for her. 

3 more block for Erin's quilt

and clamshell progress, they are rather fiddly things..

not sure if I actually like making clamshells

so there you have it, thats whats in my sewing pile at the moment!

I'm Still Here.

Now that school has gone back .....phew
and dh is back at work after his 2 wks on the golf
course

life is returning to normal and I am sewing again

I have a little Christmas list to finish making

I have made the next blocks for 'Erin's Quilt'

I have started making blocks for a quilt that mum gave
me the pattern for, we were living in WA at the
time and I have been quilting for 6 months, so I have
been hanging onto it since 2008, but I do have a
good reason for starting it, she has asked  me to do all
the needleturn appliqué on her quilt, as its the last
grandchild's quilt (she has made 8),
and she is unable to do any
hand sewing these days due to issues from one
of her Chemo drugs. So I thought I would start mine
to get back into needle turn appliqué.

I have also started block 2 of Lancaster, it only took
2 weeks to arrive from Qld! Not happy Jan at all
so at my monthly sewing day today I cut out 60
clamshells and glued the fabric to the papers, and started
stitching mums quilt.

I have made my main SSCS gift, it just needs the final
touch and then I need to make the ornament, but I need some
wool felt for that, hoping I can get some while I am home.

I went to a quilt hanging on the weekend, and I bought a
pattern and sewline glue pen and refills, even thought they
had 35% off all fabrics and books, that was my
only purchase :) such restraint

Last Wednesday my baby girl turned 9,
sometimes I wish she still was that gorgeous, chubby
little girl who loved Dora the explorer.

Why do they have to grow up??

we have had email issue due to setting up a T-Hub 2, blogger
has changed my primary email address and won't let me change
it back...........

oh big excitement is last week I was able to do a spot of whale watching
from our yard, amazing creatures.

So I will be back tomorrow with photos of whales, sewing
new quilt, clamshells, Erin's quilt.

Going Home

I am going home towards the end of the month

as my mum isn't doing very well at all.

At her last PET scan after the treatment for her

lung cancer finished she had a few 'hot spots' appear in
her chest, spine and liver

the doctors were unsure if it was because the LC had spread

or it was the Non Hodgkins Lymphoma.....

fast forward 12 weeks

She has just finished her treatments for the NHL

and has her next PET scan in 3 weeks, and the final

results a week after that, which is when I will be there.

My sister rang tonight and said that she wasn't doing to

well and that our gorgeous dad is very worried about 

mum...... and if dad is worried we know something big is up
neither of them are eating properly as mum has 

significant problems with her hands and feet due to the LC drugs,
she is permanently cold, and is having issues with her
breathing sounds really wheezy all the time and I noticed
when we Skype that she has a constant cough, not good stuff
to have when you have LC

If you are the praying kind could you please pray for

my mummy, that her Pet scan gives us the news that we

all desperately want to get, and for my daddy who has had to
take the journey with mum over the last 10 months all the while
constantly reassuring us that she is ok I worry about him too

So I am feeling a little blue tonight, I had a little cry on dh shoulder
and I really just want to go home tomorrow and give my
mum and dad a big old hug. The last 10 months have been hard because
I haven't been there for any of it.

Life can just be so cruel sometimes!

Hug your loved ones close and let them know that
you do love them..... because you never know what is
around the corner